Hey, whats the deal Fellow Bloggers?
Looks like Blogger is looking good...its been a long time since I graced these pages. I finally got a chance to sit down & go through my older blog and read all my entries that I posted from back then. These entries were downright funny and sad at the same time. Back then, I really had my moments and my weak points, kiddo. However, I actually evolved all around, as a person and within a movement of my people. Yeah, I got more mature and grew up more. And I loooooooooove it, yeaaaaaaah.
The Update, 3.5 Years Later:
I decided to update my blog a few years later. I wanted to see what it felt like from then to now....with that said, I can actually say that I have TRULY evolved into a grown woman from the place I used to be 3.5 years ago. I mean, I was mature, but still....I needed to grow a lil more and stay on top of my game as this pace moves along swiftly. Yooo, I have experienced wayyyy more stuff, made soo much moves like moving across the Hudson to NYC for good. I used to come here alot off and on as a child spending my summers here & wondered what it would be like if I was to live here for good. Now that I did it, its well worth the wait. I know the cost of living is through the roof, but I am willing to manage.
View On Friendships From Then Till Now:
I still keep the same friends (hell, I call them my EXTENDED FAMILY) I have known back then till this very day. I can honestly say that I love these fools sooooo much that it hurts. We have been through sooo much together, that we are forever bonded by the Bond of Friendship (check the blog where it says "The First 25 Years: Part 2). I am still anal on who I let in my circle, because I am used to dealing with people that I have known for at least 3 years or better. I know, I know I am a fool. With that said, I know I said thank you a million times, but ima say it again because without you all being in my life, I am nothing. These next decade we embark on may be crazier than the next. I love you all, I really do. Its soooo much to say that I may end up writing a book on you all. During this time frame, I made new ones who will forever be a part of my life. For some reason, you all have touched a part of me that my long-time friends only know about. I wish you all have gotten to know me at an earlier date, but things happen for a reason right? It takes a special person do rock with I dont expect any expectations, the only thing you have to be is yourself & things will fall into place.
La Familia Update:
Remember those entries about me and my moms when we was going at it? While reading those, I had to understand why I had those feelings & at that point, I had a damn good reason on why I was sooo angry at her. Come to find out, my moms got cancer & that scared me shitless. Moms is in remission again, doing her thing & getting treatment to weed out the cancer in her body. Even though my family has put me through a lot & sometimes things happen for a reason, I am just gonna take it in stride. Seeing as though I was letting anger get the best of me, I learned to LET IT GO for my well-being & for personal reasons. It was a very hard thing to do since I was so conditioned to think a certain way that it got too hard for me to change my thought patterns. I did it and I am still improving in more ways than one. The kids are getting bigger & time is flying tooo fast for my brain. I remember when they were babies...sheeeit, not anymore. Mariah is about to be 15, to enter Colombia High School in Maplewood, NJ as a Freshman; Rell is about to be 25 with his big house, good ass wifey (Brandi) and a healthy 6 year old daughter Shae (I am a great-aunt ya'll) down in Durham, NC; Deshawn is 13 now....and still in foster care...ima look for him & catch up on old times. Damn, I remember raising them three while raising myself at the same time. Time seems to REALLY fly. My brothers Hass & Bree are doing lovely, they are in Pa & Fl, respectively. The babies are getting older, and more handsome by the day though. I loveee em & thats my family.
Basking In The Naturalness of Love:
From 3.5 years ago till now, I can look back & honestly say that I never did the "relationship" thing. At that time, all I had was flings that kinda turned into something that it wasnt supposed to be....maybe at that time I was looking to fill that void unnaturally. All I had was "situationships" and shit...it was nothing that was natural amongst me and the other party, like it was forced. To be honest, I kissed farrrrr too many frogs before seeing my "Prince". In fact, that "Prince" was in front of my face the whole entire time & I never realized it till it was almost too late. He was there for me rooting me on when I was going through my shit with folks. We done beefed about mad shit & all that, and he was still there. For some reason, he fits perfectly in my life. He has done things that the average Joe wont do for and to me & it didnt involve sex either. Thats what made me love him more and more. Come to think about it, I never fell in love. EVER. The thing when I was 17, it was just some kiddie, puppy love type shit. Now that I am older & more wiser, I learned what real love was & for some strange reason, he kinda fits the prototype.
The Wind Beneath My Wings (Traveling):
I done started going back to traveling and seeing things for what they are...I know I am in the illest city in the World, but I am planning on traveling to far places and seeing new things. I have always been the curious type & usually, I go to far places to get out in NYC for a weekend. I actually flew to Seattle & stayed with my peoples from H.S., Blue aka Anthony. We done had a ball, went to the casino, and went to some naughty boutiques and went out to dinner (not in that particular order)...we didnt do much, but I did take pics too. I had fun there...will I do it again?Hell to the muthaeffin yeah. Traveling is a good look: it gives you an experience to remember & it can ease your stress of the cranium. Try it...
With that said, I am outtie. Comments are appreciated....come on, show some more love.
